"GOOD MORNING Child of God!Today you're going to be such a gift to your teacher, and friends, and the world!You're going to learn more about how this world works and your place in it.You are not just my son, you are a child of the King of Kings!"
"GOOD MORNING Child of God!Today you're going to be such a gift to your teacher, and friends, and the world!You're going to learn more about how this world works and your place in it.You are not just my son, you are a child of the King of Kings!"
A gloomy winter twilight in my neighborhood. It wasn't cloudy down at my house. After an afternoon of praying for the community I now live in, I drove up the mountain to take a photo.
I narrated in the video* where and why I was walking out to this lookout, even though it was dark and cloudy. Then I took 3 consecutive panoramic photos in the direction of the valley.
I am wanting to practice Sabbath better in 2023.
I had no plans on Sunday afternoon.
Church had been sweet. Communion weekend. A heartbreaking, and beautiful symbol of the Lord Jesus' broken body
and shed blood.
The pastor up front didn't rush into announcements the moment we had swallowed our juice.
(This is an answer to a secret prayer)
In worship I finally had some clarity about what God is asking of me in the new year. Make much of others. Die to self.
"THEY must become greater, I must become less" was what came to mind. A new take on one of my favorite verses:
"He must become greater. I must become less."
- John the Baptist (John 3:30)
In this past year I've realized that my heart is finally settled here. There is no longer the urgency of figuring out life in a new city, making friends, finding a church.
It's time to tidy up. There are piles literal and figurative, that have been ignored. Now is the time to clear it out.
Both in my soul - with things I realized are issues from my past that need the care of inner healing prayer this year.
And in my home.
My computer files and photos are chaos! The attic crammed with all of our parents passed on things. We'd rushed to ship with our own belongings at the beginning of Covid when we sold our LA home. I have boxes of papers and cards and things from the kids that have never been sorted and I've not dared to toss. I'm not a hoarder. But if this house were smaller, it would probably be starting to look like it!
All of this clutter is keeping me from living a life that is all that Jesus has offered me. The messes are getting in the way of fully being able to taste the purity and delight of all of his goodness.
It already January 15h.
I'm not ready for it to be the middle of the month.
I missed my annual reflective week between Christmas and New Year and only returned to the US yesterday.
I poured a small glass of real wine and decided I'd go sit at my office desk.
Mess though it was.
I would resist the urge to tidy up just yet.
As I walked through the doors I prayed,
Lord, how about I just sit
and you guide me
in rifling through these items
that have been laying here
since before Christmas?
Audrey Assad
I Shall Not Want
From the love of my own comfort
From the fear of having nothing
From a life of worldly passions
Deliver me O God
From the need to be understood [okay, now she was hitting the nail in the head for me...]
From the need to be accepted [ouch.]
From the fear of being lonely
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God
And I shall not want,
I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness
I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness
I shall not want
From the fear of serving others
From the fear of death or trial
From the fear of humility
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God
And I shall not want,
I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
No, I shall not want, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
Riveted I listened. And I listened again.
And then listened again as I sipped that small glass of wine.
I may be getting a late start to my New Year ritual: "Hearing from God" about my Word, or my Theme, or my goals for the year.
But this Sabbath afternoon, he confirmed very clearly that I was on the right track:
Taste my goodness.
Get rid of the garbage.
This is a year of Deliverance.
(see the comments below for a version of the lyrics where you can fill in the blanks for what you fear or need.
I'm making my own version!)